#### Today is quite different...
Today I’m not on track. Today I want a hot meal. Today feels like lightning and thunder. Today is black—darkest kind of black. Today I want to be home... ![E62AF2B9-6622-4C1D-A836-413606A6546C.jpeg](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmX8G9hcveqUrnqaQbPqnSn3bUEaFi141m7Qb3pc6eHatp) #### Myself is longing for unlimited cuddles and non-stop-a-bit-irking laughters. And my heart deceived me by wandering inside the box of memories—a move that I strongly disagree.
#### In this life I’ve known hardship, suffering, and sacrifice. I’ve experienced love, compassion, and happiness. Life was never easy and also it was never that hard. For it is just always a matter of choice. #### And the choice I made was to leave. I left. I left everything behind. I made myself believe that whatever I do would always be for the better. ![FE541DB4-2DAE-491C-A1EA-C32A5ED3137F.jpeg](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmTcDuAGDcbLo4oBGcXZUf9iw7NCEQo4HRHa6AeWqgDgb6)^{[source](https://pixabay.com/en/airplane-window-airline-travel-2594476/)} #### As I started my journey I was overwhelmed with tremendous predicaments and problems that I’d never experienced before. But I swore to myself I’ll never come home crying and such a failure. So I trained myself to keep my heads up, to remain strong and to refuse fear. #### If I’m going to look back how far I’ve become I can say that I’ve done a lot of things, though it may not be what I’ve dreamed of (*Maybe, because some things are just meant to stay as Dreams*) But still I’m proud of myself for not stopping. ![53916D62-9D33-4CAA-AA30-7004E26E5170.jpeg](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmWeBgXS9GgfCTc4HAXeHsALT9gTdTHmtkFNPD8W73HSkh)^{[source](https://pixabay.com/en/starry-sky-milky-way-galaxy-2051448/)} #### But today it was different. I told you its like black all over. Its like I’m gazing at the night sky but I can see no stars. #### And the only hope that I can see some light is if I can go back home. I ache to go back home where the light is bright. A safe place where I won’t be questioned. A place where I can put my mask and guards down. #### Today I just want to be home.
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