It's been a while and I sincerely miss being here, I decided to convert some of my thoughts into text and I sincerely hope that you find it enjoyable.

How I long for an atmosphere of complete quiet, How I seek peace like never before, This peace I had once considered irrelevant and I had greatly underrated, Now strikes me as a complete necessity. I really wish I had allowed myself to enjoy the atmosphere of peace a little bit more. They say I acted from a spot of being childish, ![image.png](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQme7SDXtDuCib8kwXRnceZpVnJg3pucS61uc2MUos8g9MR/image.png) [Credit](https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.vixendaily.com%2Flove%2Fjem-searching-for-love%2F&psig=AOvVaw3EbodSUp9F-A_ZDwvS4nWu&ust=1636902173532000&source=images&cd=vfe&ved=0CAsQjRxqFwoTCLCX5JL7lvQCFQAAAAAdAAAAABAD) Maybe if I knew some of the things I knew now, I would have acted better, Oh, how I wish I could turn back the hands of the clock, Oh, how I wish that things could be different. I had pushed him to a point of frustration, I guess I was too blind to notice his effort, Maybe if I had just given him a little more time, But I must say that it wasn’t completely my fault anyways, My parents were constantly on my case, It looked as though I was completely wasting my time with him, It was five years of being all loved up, but it didn’t look as if we were getting any better. As quickly as I could, I moved on to what looked like a better option, With the hope that it would be a place of bliss. Unfortunately, it was not also a place of bliss as I had expected, it was rather a place where I was unnoticed, nothing I did seemed to please my supposed lover, every day I feel like I am drowning in my own ocean of loneliness, it seems as if I am irrelevant and unexistent in this relationship of mine, as I drown every day in my own pool of tears. once I remember the memories I once shared in my past, I wish I could turn back the hands of the clock. Am I supposed to feel this way, Is my action even justifiable? Maybe it's all just my fault anyways. Thanks for reading my quick rant, it is simply a made-up emotional write-up. Let me know what you feel in the comment section.