![Untitled Artist.jpg](https://cdn.steemitimages.com/DQmcsRaX9FK4je8mWRLrwCK3SJw43tUkREUvSTL8brQCxwc/Untitled%20Artist.jpg) _{Untitled Artist
Self Portrait
2018}

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### Some Writing That Doesn't Have To Do Anything With The Photo
So basically this is a freewrite, I guess :P I have been struggling to gain weight like, forever. I have tried eating more, but, I don't like eating. I just eat when I need to. I prefer drinking. (Not drinking beer though, I mean coffee, hot chocolate, milk tea, etc) It's just that I can't push myself to eat more healthy food...and to exercise.. and to do anything healthy. I've always been on self-destruction mode lol. So after I got my painting degree, (Yeah, you can call me the tortured artist) I promised myself to take a break for a while and just focus on myself on how to be better, before going out and taking pressures from the real-life art scene. After months of just laying down in bed and isolating myself from people, I am now slowly going out and being on an [Unexpected Journey](https://steemit.com/photography/@hiddenblade/some-photos-at-the-baywalk-that-you-don-t-want-to-see). Now let's go back to my body issue. Since I hate broken promises, here I am doing all my best to be healthy. That means signing my ass up to a gym membership, sleeping on a normal time, and trying to eat nutritious food. (Yuck) I really hate veggies. It tastes like grass to me (Please get the joke). But guess what I did today? I ate CHOP SUEY! Please clap your hands for me because I really hate eating leafy foods but boom! I did it yay. And oh, I almost forgot to mention I am eating more than my normal eating amount. So I am writing this while drinking soy milk and a peanut butter sandwich... for the sake of protein. :D I also really really really hate [bananas](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-If2r9ENQfA) but I ate them because I need to lol. And even though I feel like throwing up when I eat more, I will still do it and will try to wake up early and grab a brush and put a little makeup just for the sake of the [ASS](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-EjMsV5D1Zg) So to end this, here's my favorite song that motivates me to eat Chop Suey hahaha.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSvFpBOe8eY _{Chop Suey!
System Of A Down}